Yesterday when I realized how much weight I have actually lost, it finally dawned on me that this surgery has really worked for me. Also, no matter how much pain I was in after the surgery; no matter how much I stressed out over the entire pre-approval process- it was so worth it. Even if I only lost 45 lbs it is worth it to me.
I won't deny that I have been quite fatigued due to a number of reasons: low protein intake, history of Vitamin D deficiency, possibly low on Vitamin B12, and also I have been working at my new job on floating shifts. All of these have contributed to my tiredness.
However, I also feel REALLY great! My bones don't feel like so much pressure is on them. I am starting to fit into clothes I haven't been able to wear in 2 or 3 years. I feel so blessed to have been able to have this surgery. In the past my weight loss has felt like the punishment of the Greek legend, Sisyphus; who's punishment was to roll the rock up the hill and when it reached the top the rock would always roll back to the bottom and the cycle was repeated into infinity. I no longer feel like that, for the first time in my life I feel like I can reach my healthy weight!
Weight and food will no doubt always be a struggle for me, but I have learned that I can occasionally enjoy eating out or eating regular food. That's not to say that I go crazy, but my occasional cheating has helped me to reduce stress. By not constantly obsessing over my diet, I can still enjoy normal life. On a normal basis though, I do still try to maintain the instructions of my doctor which is less than 30 grams of carbs per day and at least 60 grams of protein per day.
Speaking of protein, that is something I still struggle with. Although I do eat some kind of protein every meal, chicken, fish, or beef, I am still far short of my needs. I will have to start drinking protein drinks again. My hair is falling out by the handful. Luckily I have really thick hair so I am about the only person who notices. I thankfully don't have any bald spots. But my doctor ordered a very detailed vitamin panel on me and I had blood work done yesterday.
So to end this, I still have a ways to go on my weight loss journey, but my goal is within reach! I am so excited! Below are this months pictures and my Tanita scan results for yesterday!
On the left is the day I came home from surgery, on the right is yesterday at my follow up visit!
